Or metaphor, however you prefer to use it…
It seems a common enough notion, but one that is perhaps only common amongst the self-employed, that we are all like swans. You see us gracefully gliding along, precisely preening our feathers, delicately curving our wings, but what you miss is the furious (arguably ugly) paddling going on beneath the surface!
But it’s that paddling that lets us glide… The beautiful end garment you see, that’s barely half the story. There are challenges, hardship, uncertainties, recurrent self-doubt (all good artists have this), and endless thinking and working, made better/worse by all the inspiration and stimulation to be found in the world. Couture corsetieres, in particular, set themselves an extra challenge simply in opting for an usual product of unusual quality.
This is why I am blogging after midnight whilst on “holiday”. My brain doesn’t want to switch off. Having a creative vocation is less a choice and more a solution (to the fact that I am ill-suited to other work), and the tricky side of “getting what you wish for” is in trying to strike a work/life balance.
So the aspirations I have for Sparklewren come from all this. To be creative and engaged and drama-free. To earn enough of an income to support the work (ie: to continue being able to make couture corsetry), and to be able to support myself and my loved ones safely and reliably. It’s not earth-shattering stuff, not especially lofty or ambitious… But there is none-the-less much furious paddling behind the scenes to make it happen.